In the palace...

something was changed in the palace.. as auntie said
i don't feel anything wrong at the first
but when the day we bck from online.. ...
and saw the 'F**K HER' message
i can feel smtg nearly to burst out!!
n.. somebody was saying that i'm looking down on her
this make me feeling down for few days
and i am thinking, and keep asking myself "izit i'm too bad until doing tis stuff???looking down on people??"
1st, i'm not looking down on anybody, as i m not qualified too, who m i man?i'm just a girl who stopped form6 and came to college life.
and yet, u push all the responsibility to me. don't ever you think what happen to u before? and just blame on other people that u're not welcome, n u r been looking down by others?
can you think how about urself 1st?
i am just fed up to u. but not looking down on you. PLEASE BE NOTICED
thinking back when we all are in exam. we all are studying
u just keep on saying something like... "FAILED! FAILED AND FAILED"
everyone were giving you advise and encouragement, but you just said you can't.
do you try urself harder, and work for it before you said you can't?
i treat you as everyone did the same way. but i'm the one who get blame from you. just because i m same course with u?
i dunno what to write anymore..
as they told me
'Qing zhe zhi qing'
i have no nit to be feeling sad as i din did anything as you said
this is just a little kinda of issue
i have to face more prob in the future. won't let this thg border me much. and i will still be myself. won't fake with anybody.
hope everyone in the palace will be fine too...hope everythings will be over...
-lil HeBe.. RaIn-